Guilt, guilt, go away!

Here I go again with the guilt. I’m up at 4 or 4:30 A.M. but I don’t always know whether I should get up or not. Why? Because laying next to me is my dear husband, fast asleep. It’s: do I get up and not be here when he wakes up, or do I just stay here and try to fall back asleep for another hour or so? Trying my best to be a good wife, I at least make it a point to go to bed at the same time as he does. But I am a morning-person, always have been. So needless to say I’ve stayed in bed the past few days, shunning my early-morning quiet time/writing time. In addition to that, the time of year isn’t helping much either since the sun rises later now. During the summer, when the sun is up a lot earlier, it’s not as difficult for me to drag my butt out of the warm bed and shuffle down the hall to the kitchen table where my laptop sits, waiting.

So I discussed this situation over with my husband, and he said he was fine with it. That was a relief. I don’t want to feel guilty about my writing. I want to have a clear head to think up clever plot lines and character sketches. I do not want to bog down the old brain with feelings of remorse or uncertainty. What do I do? Can I even fall back to sleep? So, tomorrow, bright and (very) early, I will bounce, okay, perhaps that’s not accurate…stumble is probably a much better word choice…and shuffle down the hall and into the kitchen to the table where my laptop waits. I think that my brain does work better in the early morning when it’s nice and quiet in the house, for the time being. With my husband and two grown sons, and a mangy mutt, the house doesn’t remain that way for too long.

I’m ready for tomorrow morning. I’m ready to write. I’m ready to start the day off right with creativity and coffee; lots and lots of coffee. And when the day is done, I will be bathed in a joyous sense of accomplishment. Thank you, dear. Thank you, brain. I’m always happiest when everything flow together nicely.

On a side note: I recently went to one of our thrift stores and purchased a few books. I got another Vince Flynn, Alex Berenson, and Joseph Wambaugh to add to my growing collection. Okay, I hope I spelled Wambaugh correctly. And currently I am reading another fantastic romance by Lori Foster, Run the Risk. Well, friends, that’s it for now. Happy Writing and happy reading. If you’re like me, you aren’t happy if you don’t get at least a half hour to read a good book. What are you reading right now?

Just Another Cold Day

Okay, so I’ve been a bit lax in posting once a week, but time seems to get away from me. Why? I have no idea. Life is good. I’ve already lost 5 lb. on my new resolve to get into shape. To fit in a bikini by summer. Shooting for June 1st. Getting better at the gluten-free and lactose-free eating. Baked some gluten-free bread. Not bad but I do think I put in too much baking powder. But I’ll get better as I learn to bake the new way. It’ been really nasty cold out here in the Northwest suburbs of Chicago. We got spoiled with unseasonable temps in the low to mid fifties. I’d look those back now, please. And could you hurry that up! Thank you. I’ve been writing every day for an hour, while at least since last Friday. But I’m now consistent. I’m working on a novel. My first. It’s a romance about a widow and her two young daughters having to move back to the hometown in which she was raised and all the fun stuff that living there entails. At least she gets along with with her widowed mother. So that’s a plus.

I’ve come to appreciate doing Step Aerobics. Gin Miller’s Reebok one is one that I really enjoy. So I also am counting calories which can be a huge pain. I usually keep up with that for maybe a month and then get bored with it. I need to keep with it because it’s one thing that really seems to work for me. But other than that, I, along with my family, are doing well. I’m having a blast with social media: Twitter, Facebook…keeps me energized for some strange reason. And no. I am not jealous of my FB friends’ lives. I am rather happy for them whenever something good happens. More power to them, I’d say. But let’s see: reading The Gray Man by Mark Greaney currently. Recently finished the second book in the series: On Target. If you love to read thrillers, I highly recommend reading his work, along with another new favorite of mine: Vince Flynn.

I’ve been having a lot of fun purchasing used paperbacks at our local thrift store. 79 cents and a new world awaits. I have been happily delving into new generes as of last year. Used to read just romance but I’m expanding. And glad. I believe that this will help prepare me to be a better, hopefully more succesful writer. I think I’ve purchased in the past few years about two hundred or so paperbacks. My husband think I’m wasting time when I read but I know that part of being a good writer is reading a lot, and various works and generes. He’s not into reading. He says it bores him to sleep.

Speaking of my wonderful husband, does anyone have any info. or connection into doing voice-over work? My husband is a genius at voice-overs but just needs to get his foot in the door, so to speak. A multi-talented man, just wish there was something I could do to help him. We all want to achieve our goals in life, to live out our dreams. I’m working on mine.

Okay, so other than that, let’s see: New bands that I’m listening to: Five Finger Death Punch is a favorite. Pushing fifty this year and I still love my heavy metal/hard rock(is it still called that?) Though I believe that I’m starting to go deaf because I keep having to turn up the sound. Oh well.

So in conclusion: live your life. love your life. don’t take things too seriously or too peronally. Laugh more, love more, smile more, and be angry less. Til next we meet again.