Imagine being smothered within the confines of a cocoon. You don’t feel like there is any chance of escape. On the one hand, you like the solitude, but on the other hand you can’t bear the walls squeezing in on you. All you want is the best of both worlds and that is out of your reach. Be left alone, but also to be able to have freedom of movement.
Asperger’s. My brain embraces it’s title. The word soaks deep within me. I’m floating on a cloud of recognition. This is who I am. The way I was made to be. Not flawed. I, along with others on the Autism Spectrum, are unique. Beauty lies within our diversity. No longer to feel ashamed of my differences, what makes me who I am. I don’t need to feign understanding, sometimes I just don’t get it and that’s okay.
I am alive with discovery. I don’t need to hide any longer. The pain and the humiliation of the past is just that, it is behind me. I don’t need to wring my hands, wondering what is wrong with me. I don’t need to consider taking my own life because I feel so unlike the others. No. I have much to offer. Perhaps not so much face to face in a crowd full of strangers, but one on one with friends, those I feel safe enough to be around. I’ve grown to be thankful, of self-awareness of who I am. Not distraught.
And you? Fellow Aspies, how do you feel? What do you want to shout to the world about yourself? Me? I want to shout that not everyone is the same and that it is okay to be different, and not part of the crowd. Some of us like spending times alone. We can enjoy our own company, be our own best friend.
We can enjoy our lives. Those who love us will understand, will accept us for who we were created to be. Will there be those who laugh at us because of how we dress, or talk non-stop about our favorite subjects? Yes. Some of mine are: religion, dogs, books, and the paranormal. What about you?
So come on, fellow Aspies, live life the best you can, even if it is not being the center of attention(who wants that anyway!). You are perfect and beautiful JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.